My Place

 

A dream of mine has always been to own a bed and breakfast. I love cooking, baking, entertaining, and meeting new people. I live on, what I think, is a pretty amazing piece of property. But I certainly don’t have the house to do anything like that. Idle Wild Farm has always been a special place to me. It has been in my family for over thirty years. It is covered with beautiful old oaks. There are wild untamed spots and thoughtfully designed spots. We live down an old dirt road which makes it seem like we are in the middle of nowhere but we are actually pretty close to everything. We live only minutes away from the greenway which offers hiking, biking, and trail riding all the way across the state. It still gets dark enough here that you can see the stars at night. We have horses, a wonderful little barn, and a nature covered (trees) arena. We have chickens for fresh eggs, our beloved dogs, and a pet rabbit. Oh, and I can’t forget our crazy little barn cat, Twyla.

We have lots of fruit trees, peach, plum, nectarine, orange, tangerine, grapefruit, persimmon, loquat, meyer lemon and lime. We have raspberry and blueberry bushes. I grow fresh organic herbs and vegetables on my deck. We have tons of wildlife here, butterflies and honey bees, raccoons, armadillos, hawks, woodpeckers. Gopher tortoises and every once in a while a snapping turtle comes through, heading to the neighbors pond. We have lots of squirrels and we once had a white tailed squirrel come to visit. We have bats, flying squirrels, and owls. Believe it or not, Jerry can actually call the owls in at night! We have our very own, resident, sandhill cranes that on some years grace us with their babies.

As you can see, we are blessed with an enchanted, special place that I gratefully get to call home. I have tried to create a peaceful little hideaway. Being here, surrounded by nature, makes me feel grounded and allows me to relax and unwind from the outside worlds hustle and bustle. I get to travel this path called life with the animals that call this place home, they are  gentle reminders to stay in the present and just be. I think there is a special energy here, a healing energy. I love to mindfully walk barefoot through the grass and find a lovely place to sit and contemplate the next garden or adventure…

Speaking of my next adventure! I want to share a little bit of this with others who would like a little shelter from the storms of this modern life. People that want to come out and reconnect with nature. We are almost done restoring our first little vintage camper, it is looking amazing! We are doing a total, down to the frame restoration. I am faux painting the walls and ceiling. I am decorating it to be cozy and comfortable. When it is all finished, I want to park it in a strategic place on my property and with landscaping, my goal is that you will feel privacy and peace. I want to rent this as a place to camp and relax for the weekend.

This will be a work in progress. My goal is to have 3 little spots to camp out on the peace and privacy my property. I want to have the camper and 2 tiny cabins, which we are building out of reclaimed materials. I want to do lots of landscaping to enhance whats already here. I want to build an outdoor kitchen to cook amazing, locally crafted meals in. I want to have paths for walking and benches for meditating or bird watching. I would love to make a zen garden or a labyrinth.  Of course, everything must fit in seamlessly with the nature that surrounds it.

Eventually, I would like to offer artists retreats, cooking or cake decorating weekends, horse back riding lessons, organic gardening classes, etc. of course on different weekends of the year. This is giving me the opportunity to to use my creativity and resources to their fullest potential! And also to have a way to make a living doing and sharing the things that I love! In the pictures above, the two cabins are what I want to build. If you have any old building materials, wood, metal, garden furniture, plants or resources that you think I could use, and you live relatively close to me, please let me know, it would be greatly appreciated!  Also, with this beautiful weather, if any one feels like coming out and giving us a hand with building, gardening, or painting please let us know. We can use all the help we can get, as we are doing this all by ourselves!

 

 

 

Relax

Today is a good day. I am happy to say I am feeling really good in a kinda relaxed familiar way. I have been very busy to say the least. I think I may have been over compensating for what I perceived as lost time during the active phase of my illness. I felt kind of “out of control” wanting to get back to “normal” and do all the things I hadn’t been doing for the last 8 months. I have a bad habit of forcing things, making stuff happen! But sometimes, as I am learning, you just have to let things run their course. So in the last few weeks I have been going like crazy, doing this and that. Go, go, go! The puppy keeps me busy, in, out, in, out, play, play, play!  Jerry left for Puerto Rico, so everything is my responsibility, yikes! I have started painting again, with many more cool projects piling up. I have been yard saleing. I have been playing my cello, even jammed with some friends! I have been cleaning and organizing my house and getting back into doing some much needed yard work. It has been crazy steamy hot here, of course it is summertime in Florida! I have been walking and doing Tai Chi. Promoting my artwork again. I have been eating healthy and taking care of myself. Researching all kinds of stuff. Back to doing farm chores and horses. Wow!

Don’t get me wrong I am thoroughly enjoying myself! I oftentimes look back and think I couldn’t have done this six months ago. Just walking to the barn was all I could muster! I am beginning to recognize myself again. I feel more like the old familiar me! My strength is coming back, my hair is coming back, I think it’s actually thicker than it was before! I now have eyebrows and lashes! I have researched, got approval from my doctor, and have started taking a supplement called Turkey Tail Mushroom. It has had some very promising results in supporting the immune system in post chemo patients. I am still dealing with some side effects like this crazy burning in my thighs if I stand up for too long and hot flashes and night sweats from the hormone therapy. Bone and muscle aches and pains, some mornings I’m not sure if I can get out of bed! But these things are getting better and I can live with them.  And I am finding that the better I take care of myself, eating clean and gentle exercise, the better I feel, mentally and physically, surprise!

So now I am beginning to feel like I can calm down, rope myself in a little bit and find some balance. Work, play, RELAX, repeat!

 

Day By Day

As much as I was in denial at the beginning of this adventure, and a small part of me still doesn’t want to believe it. I am finding that whenever I hear about someone else dealing with cancer I feel a weird connection like, “Yup, I can relate.” I guess I am now part of this tribe. This is a tribe of warriors for sure. Definitely not a tribe you choose to be in but somehow you deal, you have no choice. There are plenty of happy ever after stories, which I hope to be one, and too many not so happy endings. It is inevitable that when you have had cancer you kind of feel like a ticking time bomb. Some days I feel awesome and almost normal. Other days I feel achy and tired and worried that the cancer will come back. Not fun at all.

It feels amazingly good to be getting back to my routine. I am happy to be doing some spring cleaning and farm chores. The horses are looking great, I think they are finally shed out. This morning I got to eat the first peach of the year off my tree, juicy, sweet, delicious! I still cannot do everything I want to do but I am doing tons more than I could a few short months ago. I do worry. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to do all the things I want to do.  I am noticing that I like to keep busy, it keeps me from getting stuck in my own head. I am still learning to listen to my body and if I feel like taking it easy one day, I am learning that it is ok. I had a very busy week last week and company all weekend, I loved it.  This week I am taking it a little easier. Wow you don’t realize how hard that is for me, to not feel guilty or ashamed of not getting much done. You know I have like 8 months of down time to make up for! My mind is still in overdrive. I have to keep reminding myself of what I have been through. And all the healing my body is still doing. Not to mention all the hair…my body is putting lots of effort into growing all this hair back! lol I am Italian so you know what that means! Just have to learn to take it day by day.